current mood:  happy

after the insodent in the morning with my brother. yesterday turned out to be a pretty good day.  well better than it has been anyways. i'm pretty hopeful that i would be able to start a new life pretty soon, with the one i love. i met a few more people yesterday it was exciting. and i also went to a amusment park i think it was called. but i didn't really like it there, the rides where really scarey O.O. oh and big news, i'm moving in with Felicia-san. she was nice enough to offer me a place to stay for a while. though i do feel like i;m running away from my fears. but i don't know what else to do.

today, Haruko-san called my cell phone. i was in shock that she accutly remembered it! i talked to her for about 2 hours. she wanted to know how i was doing and you know normal stuff. but when i asked her if she knew where Itsumi-kun was, she said she didn't know. but at least i know shes not lying to me. at least someones not. i feel like this whole  situation is just full of lies. everyone always lies to me i can't stand it. even when my father died. my mother told me that he went away somewhere and would come back soon. right mom...oh and speaking of which i visted her yesterday. first time in 3 months. she didn't remember who i was. she didn't know anything. she was even confused on who she was. she's not getting any better like the doctor said she would.~ears drop~

~Ryu the "forsaken one"

((jeez i'm up early this morning. i got up at 3:00 am and couldn't go back to sleep so about 10 mins again i was like how bout i update! XD w/e oh and form now on i'll put one icon after my update! ^^ just don't take them!!!>.<))

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