current mood:  sad/guilty

yesterday was a good day, i was in high spirts. everyday i seem to make new friends. i even have two new "nice" brothers, Myth-kun and Haru-kun. i also moved in Felicia-san. and i met James-kun and Sam-san. they both seem really nice. i hope i'll fit right in.

today, the doctor called me. about my mom. he said that she was going through a nervos breakdown, and was trying to comit suicide. shes such a weak person. i went through the same things as she did, and even more. and look at me, i'm still here...he also told me that she sabbed herself...so now shes in the hospital again. ~sets his head agaisnt a wall~ i hate this...i hate it so much...why the hell dose my family have to be so messed up...now i feel like its all my fault that shes doing this. if i could have been more like a son to her, and not have been scared of her, maybe none of this would have happened...

~Ryu the "forsaken one"

((nothing much to write today, just that i have a cold and im probaby not going to be on much today. i feel so horrible >.>))